GH Alum Coby Ryan McLaughlin Suffers a Deep, Personal Loss

As Shiloh, the Dawn of Day cult leader on General Hospital, Coby Ryan McLaughlin kept us on the edge of our seats. Now, the actor is touching his fans in a different way by penning a personal essay about a dearly departed loved one.

In Memoriam

McLaughlin doesn’t name the woman he’s lost, presumably for privacy reasons, but his heartfelt words are deep and filled with emotion. He originally shared a post a few days ago but chose to take it down because he says it felt too soon. “I think it will always feel too soon,” he wrote after posting it again.

“My beautiful beloved…” McLaughlin began. “The first thing I noticed about you was how you moved. Always in some sort of fluid motion… even when you were sitting still; always swaying to a melody that only you could hear. music. I could feel it when you touched me. We moved as one. Always in step. Easy.

“When we would lay next to each other, our bodies shifted effortlessly. as one,” he continued. “The way you touched me… pure. perfectly honest in intention. Light. Love. So full of love… we would lay in bed staring into each other, neither sharing the secrets of our thoughts. didn’t have to. you looked at me with eyes so deeply full of love and trust…like it was predetermined from countless other lifetimes. It was the safest most familiar thing I’ve ever known, and when you pulled me into breath with you, I was home. Breathing With you…

“We would intertwine in one another. Heart to heart, suspended, floating in nothingness…. Together. Safe. Breathing you in…. Your smell. I could smell you all over me. Completely. Your skin, your hair… my god, what I wouldn’t give to bury myself in you one last time, a hand full of your hair, and just breathe. Big, deep breaths, pulling that smell of home down deep inside of my lungs, letting it permeate every fiber of my being until I thought My heart would explode with the love I felt for you.

“My person. My friend. My beloved. I am utterly destroyed from your early departure. I could not fathom the amount of pain that you were in. I could not help you. I could not save you. I know there will be a light again somewhere, someday, but today I am completely empty, and my despair bottomless.

“I know you found the peace you needed,” he concluded. “I’m sorry it couldn’t be in this lifetime. I promise I will find you again. I will know it’s you. I will come to you, and we will once again move in step, bound in an endless union that knows no time, and has no constraints. I love you endlessly, my beautiful woman. Until the next lifetime.”

Soap Hub sends Coby Ryan McLaughlin deep condolences at this difficult time.